今天寫洋文?

Correspondence on 13/02/2012 KAI-TING CHANG, taiwanaise, 24 ans.

12^th June 2010, it was the date that I will never forget. As a junior journalist, I was sent off to a small town in middle France, Angers. As a foreign journalist, I was not impressed until I was actually experiencing the lifestyles and slow paces here, with the abundant culture heritages and strong sense of amicability. This is my first impression of this city: lovable and tranquil. But the first impression faded when I started over my life here. In fact, before coming to France, I was all informed that I will be stuck in life availability here: language barrier, unavailability in transportation, administration…etc. Even though I have prepared to a certain level in mind, I still can’t help but confront something which are not very pleasant to me.

1^ST ROUND: “PAS D'ANGLAIS” When I was in the train station, I tried to explain my problem in French and ask for guidance. I was not treated friendly by the acceuil but instead “pas d’anglais” as his reply. That reminds me in Taiwan, it will be a totally different situation when we confront a foreigner who seems anxiously lost. Anyway, this was not a very pleasant experience. Since language itself can reflect a cultural and represent its ethnicity, I can’t help but start wondering, what are the earth French people thinking? What will be their mindset? Anyway, if it will be the sense of ethnical superiority speaking, then as foreigners who can’t speak the same language, we should probably just try to respect and understand it. But in fact it occurs me that why people outside of France will automatically assume that people should speak English expect French people? That would be another huge topic of conversation.

2^ND ROUND: ADMINISTRATION. I can’t say that in Taiwan the administration is faster and better than here, because we always complain and mock administrative are lazy people who work very slowly and no passion. Until I came here, I start feeling that it is much better in Taiwan! We can run at least 5 errands in one day and make lots of things done; but here, I should clean out a whole vacant day to go only to the post in centre ville, to fill forms, to watch clients pleasantly talking with workers without knowing people waiting in line… In fact, it was a part of French culture as one of the most elegant ethnic with the most elegant life pace, which I think it means: slow. It implements in several aspects: eating, talking, always late for rendez-vous…etc. But to make myself clear, all these are just generally speaking, it still depends on different people in different situations.

  3^rd ROUND: CULTURAL DIFFERENCES. Of course there is no doubt to say cultural shocks exist when two differences confront and bump each other; for example, when formage met stinky tofu (traditional Taiwanese snack, famous for its stinky smell), when wines met Taiwan beers, when luxury brands met street vendors, when French cuisine table manner met hot-pot culture (sharing food in a big round table, with chopsticks altogether in the pot)… Not to mention that we have at least 5 countries of cultures mixing together in this class, it will be my next step of learning: how to blend in and deal with cultural differences in a cross-cultural group? And furthermore how to grow up in cooperation with this group, and how “myself” can grow up in this country, and I can face and cope with all the differences and challenges within the cultural differences, and that’s what I anticipate myself to learn from this class.

    In this piece of article, it seems that I pointed out many defaults and whatsoever, but actually what I am trying to point out is the difference. I would like to welcome and recommend people to come to Angers since it is really a nice place to slow down the life paces, to wash out the hustle bustle in our lives. Now, I can concentrate on my studies and squeeze out my time to learn cooking, wine-tasting, and to enjoy French lifestyles in Angers. And finally I realize that why we always applaud that French people know how to enjoy lives, that’s because it’s their way and mindset to appreciate every moment in a respectful way of living, which is what we sometimes ignore and less pay attention to. 

來到烏托邦

到法國已經一個月了，從沙特到巴黎，從巴黎到昂傑，我的旅行的意義，是不斷與自己的不成熟對抗。這裡天氣目前沒有想像中冷，環境沒有想像中野蠻，倒是不可否認地常常會一覺醒來覺得自己怎麼可以這麼幸運。

很怕親手葬送運氣。

對我來說，在成行的前三個月是關鍵期，不安全感來自本身極度鬆軟的學術背景，一個念頭覺得好像該去國外long stay一下，否則一無是處以及人們很care的resume空的跟張白紙一樣也滿不好意思的。所以我覺得我很任性。明明身無分文，卻不想讓這個機會溜走。從這個念頭開始，我就進入了所謂的＂磨難期＂了！在準備出國前的日子裡，是一次又一次的打擊和挫折，獅子座很好勝卻非常懶惰的我常常在幻想自己會做卻搞砸所有事項中拉扯糾結著，然後就一直不斷拉扯糾結，直到銀行通知我無法申辦貸款的那一刻。那時候真的想放棄了，覺得可能上帝不想讓羅東鎮西安里小雜貨店之女出國讀書。但事後證明我多想了，我們意外的得到很高額的獎學金，得到好多老師和相關人士的幫忙，尤其是大帥哥大好人完美理想老公劉以德老師的爆肺協助，我們三個女生總算在前天settle好，準備開始水深火熱的法國學習之路。

希望這次不要再搞砸了

來說說這裡的生活吧！在來到昂傑的前一個月，可能就是過著人們口中’’很閃’’跟’’很爽’’的生活吧，老法（借喻我男友）生長在沙特，一個傳統的宗教小鎮，家人非常熱情好客，從他們身上學到的是，分享和即知即行的重要性，和營造生活情趣的重視。我們總是聽說法國人很浪漫很懂得生活，以前我不能理解，自從跟他們家人一起生活後，我發現原本我對自己的生活，是如此不負責任的輕率。一個總是帶著一副輕蔑色彩看所謂的人事物、總是否定一切以為自己是真理的我、用好多錯誤的價值觀和態度在活著的我。但在我領悟到法國人飯吃那麼久是為了增進家人感情的同時，不時在心中翻白眼覺得也太晚開飯以及吃太久。

講到這人們可能以為我信教了？

那天在ｊｅｕ　ｄｅ　ｐａｕｍｅ看了Ｄｉａｎｅ　Ａｒｂｕｓ的展，神往多久，但切記這種展最好不要跟不熟的人去，以免尷尬致死

身為城堡狂熱者的老法，從小立誓要到過世界上所有知名景點的他，在他嚴密濃厚的規畫風情網絡下，我也常常受惠被他平行輸送到一些我自己可能聽過或從未聽過的景點去一探究竟。常常仗著２５歲以下學生免費的優惠，我們走過巴黎的知名景點，羅浮宮鐵塔凱旋門聖母院奧賽ｂｌａｈｂｌａｈｂｌａｈ，常常也是名不虛傳的讓我腿軟，也可能是我比較容易滿足。龐畢度古監獄ｍｕｓｅｅ　ｃａｒｎａｖａｌｅｔ，ｊｅｕ　ｄｅ　ｐａｕｍｅ是沒有那麼知名但深得我心的好去處。ｐｉｅｒｒｅ　ｆｏｎｄ，ｃｈａｔｅａｕｄｕｎ，還有在Ｏｒｌｅａｎｓ的ｃｈａｔｅａｕ　ｄｅ　Ｔａｌｃｙ，是幾個意外的小發現，噢瑪黑，很喜歡一種巧克力Ｃｈｏｃｏｌａｔ　ｖｉｅｎｎｏｉｓ，不便宜但絕對值得一試。

←特別喜歡這

喔對了ｌｅｓ　ｓｏｌｄｅｓ大減價，瘋狂程度不贅述

１／２６當天，跟雙Ｊ和劉老師在巴黎法式早餐後，我們一起到了昂傑展開我們的新生活，掉文件，掉衛生褲，大小狀況不停歇，關關難過關關過，謝謝老師。

喔對了，我是真的過的很好，不用擔心！除了常被老法抱怨我太愛待在Ｆｌａｔ裡面吃泡麵看美劇以外。

貳零壹貳零壹零貳:凱特貳遊蒙馬特

我最最最最喜歡的一幕

早再出發前來巴黎之前，心中就在盤算著，我的第一站會最想再去看一次哪個景點，啾竟哪裡是我心中的巴黎呢？答案是蒙馬特。不能否認每個女生心中都有一點艾蜜莉的影子，也可能是嚮往一種不由分說的的詭譎人生吧，然後覺得自己滿酷的。常常會想說，儘管奧黛莉已經熟透的不可能再剪上１８歲的招牌髮型，尼諾也不會再收集快照了，那個傳說過頭的聖心堂還是美的不像話。

愛蜜梨發燒友們此時應該要下跪了

從我住的地方Porte de Clichy (line13) 到Anvers-Sacré-Cœur (line 2)只要六站的距離，對於一年後重做遊客的我，多帶在身上的，是謹慎與不得不收進口袋的瘋癲。身為不專業歐洲文化觀光研究生，生平素有「所恥」之稱的凱特也必須盡上一點職責涵養：盡興。對於身旁有如民族大熔爐的觀光客大會師，自己身處其中，會發現各種人都有，有人把旅行當交作業，筆記MEMO一大堆；有人則不把旅行當旅行，而是野餐放空看風景。我加入了後者：買了個4e的poulet+fromage crepe salee (事後被老法恥笑受騙)+找一個view不錯，不會讓你動殺機想殺觀光客之處－＞或坐或躺或醒或睡地放空。（但其實也不代表在台灣有少在放空）

耶!

基本上畫家村也是一陣絕妙。街道上熙來攘往拿個畫版，也不知道是不是真的畫家，有興致的話，的確可以坐上個幾小時，帶走一張畫。老法說曾經有中國人在那寫書法（書寫老外中文名字）即可賺錢，是否挺好賺的。

此人過度法式

買了;)

對了，相信巴黎惡名昭彰的還有黑人或Arabe的出沒（單指個人行為非全體），會在觀光客手上綁手環然後索價，身邊好多人都有過這樣的經驗，甚至在米蘭的時後，小刀小姐還被不肖人士用鴿群困住！進行扭力戰！幸好小刀力大無窮？哈哈哈偏題了。總之，不得不慎的就是人身安全，而生平以卒仔聞名的我，就在昨天以１：１０的姿態，正對著前方一群，差點把我逼到死胡同裡！卒仔如我，以３６０度迴旋的方式掉頭走開。小心為上阿肥羊們。

改天來畫畫

匪法行事曆：每個異鄉遊子都該做的我也要做，精進不能慢，想念不能少，出國深造太嚴重，溫良恭儉讓才是真，要讓每個人都變成更好的人，就從自己開始吧。凱特２０１２後罪孽深重人生筆記。

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回到改變之後

十年沒開布拉格 i mean blogger, comrad,

版面也變得太美 reckons我回鍋臨幸




十年沒動筆 i mean chances are there but always in vain,

人生也變得太美 recalls我把握時間




我相信自由的思考背後有拿捏機制


我學到狹窄的視角看的到出口卻看不到可能性的寬廣


五個月的變化太大 神經線要夠強


我的字典裡沒有放棄 我的未來需要踏實耕耘


免費卡內基?!






..."But as you get older, I think that some friendships start to feel increasingly redundant. You just find yourself asking, 'what's the point'? And then you stop."


too good to be true?


洋蔥咄咄咄˙意識流流流




:/

鵝鵝鵝

it's going CA-RAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

滴努作業產出三步驟: 發呆→亂寫→很敢交

It was all starting from the sojourn toward Venice. The hailing burst out the curtain of the scene, “First class to Venice! Here you are, sir!” where seemed to be “A happily chosen destination!” The truth is, however, the detached mentality was carried Aschenbach from the “Venice! A magnificent city!” Venice’s magnificence seemed not parallel to a mournful mind, the inner solemnity was unspeakable, toward the outer world. Indeed, “A city full of irresistible attraction to the well-educated, both due to its history and its present charms!” A city with history, charismatic as it shined, brought out anticipation, fever, and hopes. While the case was not as anticipated enough, that is, the city of splendor did not well received, functioned, and perceived by an unawakened mind. In the first place, “He did not anticipate anything else, for the city had always received him with splendor.” (p.13)

    In the making of a transitory mind, the settlement in the first explored place was worth observing. “What seemed to him so hard to bear, even intolerable, was apparently the notion that he would never again set eyes on Venice, that this would be a permanent farewell (p.25). The dislike of Venice was reaching the point of being intolerable. However, there was no doubt Tadzio’s showing up was a tipping point. The observing essence of a distant gaze soon took over the emptiness of a rekindled mind. Then the depictions were tempting, “Several times, when the Sun set behind Venice, he sat on a bench in the park to watch Tadzio who, dressed in white and girded gaily, was playing ball on the flattened gravel court and it was Hyacinth he deemed to see who had to die because two gods fell in love with him,” (p.36) pervading the aroma of lust. It was not until the affection to Tadzio was brewing in the city of lust, the transferring affection to the city was coming up:

“That was Venice, alluring and dubiously entrancing—this city, part fairy tale, part tourist trap, in the putrid atmosphere of which art used to blossom luxuriously and which had inspired musicians with lulling melodies. The adventurer felt as if his eyes were drinking that kind of luxury, as if his ears were courted by those kinds of melodies; he also recalled that the city was ailing and kept it secret because of its lucre, and he gazed even more unrestrainedly at the gondola in front.”(p.40)

However, the turning of the sets was vibrantly shifted later on, with the scorching sun and the overbearing sultriness haunted in the city. It was broodingly haunted, Venice, St Mark’s, flooded with crowds, “Venice is diseased!” (p.47) the scandalous malady was out of control, and the police was over the town sterilizing. The diseased Venice set a tone of sadness, contrasted the alluring sentiments of the loving hearts. The city did play a turning role backing up the transforming characters’ makings of mentalities. Solemnly depicted, it sent out messages of bitter sweetness voicing the uncanny beauty with downside darkness. With the twisted magnificence of a promising city, Venice was thus seen a saddened backdrop with reminiscing props, rekindling every single challenging heart.

another noir for tonight

Compared to the iconic 18^th of splendor, the conspiracy was made out of nobody in The Third Man. For the backdrop of the Four Allie powers right after the WWII, Vienna was at that time on the peril of being the declining city of occupancy. The turmoil age was brewing a blended gathering as the black market was once showed up in Vienna city. The city was introduced not the imperial side of spectacular but the downside of a falling empire. The conspiracy was about tracing the mythic dead Third Man while the Holly found himself in his own pulp fiction protagonist. There is also such an exciting moment when contrasting the language use in each age. To look into Amadeus, the debates on the opera, Italian or German, were innovatively out spoken by Mozart by saying “It's full of proper German virtues!” when nobody seemed to know what was one of them. Until we saw in The Third Man, the inter-allied zone of Vienna where no common language was spoken, the pidgin German was mixed up with languages of nonsense. “All strangers to the place...and none of them could speak the same language, except a sort of smattering of German.” Then the proper German virtues were once again of no answers.

研究生的穩健人生值得研究

"偶然地"

回顧以前的部落格

"筆觸"好 歡快 之類的 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈


那時候還沉浸在考上研究所的喜悅中

直到現在每周被壓力追著跑

私生活好像是一種逃避那種不討喜的生活

但也沒有再少享受人生

並或許還是全台灣最有私領域的研究生之類的


難得小感性一下 不然都忘記自己也有人性

然後又來了 呵呵



總之(幾乎成為最近口頭禪一只 丸尾? 他是總而言之啦其實)

我還是很滿意自己的生活和一切非親非故的生活逆火(所謂的backfire)

但偶而還是要什麼呢?

靠杯一下。

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